I am in a season of life in which everything that is done must be done tiny step by tiny step, one solitary seemingly meaningless increment per day, or per week. Over and over again I have felt the Lord encouraging me, URGING me to press on, to be faithful in the little, to not despise the day of small things, and to by all means NOT BE IN A HURRY.
I wonder if Noah ever felt this way. I mean, it took 100 years to build that ark, with no sign of the impending rain. Given the resources of the time and the incredible size of the task, there was no choice but to do it little by little. Yet it was imperative that he finish it. Much was at stake. But he could not be in a hurry, that is to say, it was not going to happen quickly. But he kept on, and on, and on. Not a moment of it was in vain.
Before school began again in August, I felt so close to softly opening the new Seams to Streams pattern shop with just four patterns and another resource we’ve decided to sell along with them that I could taste it. My hope was to get it done before jumping into a new school year, and I was disappointed when it did not happen.
However, when I went to the Lord about it He spoke to me once again, so clearly, reminding me that He was not in a hurry, and to just continue with the little by little.
But alas, with the added responsibility this year of teaching a class once a week at our home school community in addition to my children’s schooling at home, it is now November and I have barely touched the patterns since the end of August!
I had resolved and tried two or three times to get back to it, but it seemed that fatigue or distraction or problems due to my son’s food intolerances would loom up and it would feel impossible to get up or to focus.
I was feeling discouraged, and my motivation was trickling away. My creative energy and any “extra” time (Does it count as extra when you have to have outside help to accomplish it?) I had was being used with lesson planning, but that was during the day.
You see last year, at a similar time, I sat down and wrote in my journal, “Lord, if you want me to do this, please show me HOW!”
And well, I put pencil to paper and out flowed a schedule that was balanced, with margin, not extreme in any way, and very doable.
I couldn’t believe it. It involved a bit of a paradigm shift in how I saw my fringe hours, and would require me working on the sewing and patterns for one hour each day in the morning. Needless to say, by nature of this, it would require contentment with the little by little.
So in spite of all the extra work with schooling, though it is understandable and I do give myself grace, it is not impossible for me to do that one hour a day. But I confess it has seemed so at times, and I know that part of it is discouragement with the very little I am able to accomplish at a time, and my lack of confidence in my ability to do this.
But here is the beautiful thing: How great is His grace toward me! Recently I’ve been feeling convicted that it was time to get back to it. I’ve gotten into a groove with school and grown somewhat accustomed to the added responsibility this year, and I have been feeling that gentle nudging and conviction of my loving Father reminding me of the schedule he gave me, and encouraging me to do it.
I prayed for Him to increase my motivation and desire again, and guess what popped up in my email soon thereafter?
Christine Caine’s daily email that day was not only an encouragement to be be faithful in the little things, but also a reminder of the mission He gave me…the WHY of all of this:
The significance and specific encouragement of this immediately warmed my soul and began to rekindle the motivation and desire in me to press on…
“Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much” (Luke 16:10).
Good morning! I’m praying that you have a great day.
I’m also praying that you’ll understand something today: I want you to know that you matter. Your life matters, and your contribution matters. You might feel like all you have to contribute is not much more than a drop in the ocean in terms of influence, impact or significance, but you need to know that every drop really does matter – and especially to God.
Just keep turning up and being faithful. Everyone has to overcome disappointment, discouragement, disillusionment, dissatisfaction and despondency. But as you keep going, God is going to move in awesome ways through you! ~ Christine Caine (emphasis adjusted by me)
I was blown away, and I am back to it! Though I stumble I will get back up.
My progress and the result of my work may seem so insignificant, a mere drop in the ocean, but I’m praising Him today for reminding me that:
EVERY DROP MATTERS!
It’s never too late to keep going…